Good morning, G.O. readers!
I’ve had this screen open now for about seven hours trying to think about what I wanted to talk about today. At first, I was going to talk about how sleepy I was, but now that I’ve waited on many clients, that’s no longer an issue. Right now, my greatest challenge is just to be present with whatever is arising in each moment. I’m experiencing some discomfort in my body and I’m finding it hard to focus on what I need to be doing. I find myself wanting to push these feelings away and fast forward to 5:05 when I’ll be back home and can lie down or just be off to myself without having to be “on” for my co-workers or clients. So I’m telling myself to just break the day down into five minute increments and do my best to be as fully present in those five minutes as I can (even if what I’m feeling is something I’d rather not be feeling).
Saturday, I attended the funeral of a family member. Though I hate funerals, (and will do whatever it takes to not attend one), when I have to go, I try to use the experience to help me appreciate my life more and to not take anything for granted. Funerals tend to remind us that life is short and fleeting. Most things we tend to think are such big deals right now, really don’t mean much in the grand scheme of things. We should really just try to enjoy our lives right now–as much as we can. And when we’re having a tough day or crappy moments, we should take a deep breath and remind ourselves that “this too shall pass” and strive to find any goodness at all in what’s happening. So that’s where I am right now at 2:50pm. The day has been an odd one. I’ve felt “off” all day. I’ve had some weird moments. And to paraphrase a quote from a character from one of my favorite TV shows, “Is it on me? I feel like I’ve got the crazy on me!”
If you’ll excuse me, I’m about to go breathe right now, and just remind myself that all moments are fleeting–even the awkward, crazy ones (thank goodness). Let’s be present and savor the wonderful moments and have faith that the less than wonderful ones will pass.
Edit: It is now 3:30pm. And I started this around 7:30am. Sorry if this is all over the place. I need a do over. Tomorrow will be better! I’m owning it. Peace, Love, and Chicken Grease:
Girl October