Greetings, G.O. readers!
Hopefully this Thursday morning finds you well. I’ve actually had this topic on my mind now for a little over a week. The title of this post came to me while I was writing, “Have You Ever Felt Alone in Your Pain”. I already know. I need to explain. What exactly is a spiritual *sshole?
I think it can mean different things, but here’s what it means for me–when I say I’m a spiritual *sshole, I mean that I feel like I give more time to stupid and meaningless stuff than I give to God.
It’s like I always seem to be relegating my time spent with Him to right before I go to bed; and then many times, I’m too sleepy to give a proper prayer or meditation session.
It’s also when I find hours on end to be on the internet on Tumblr or Twitter or Google Plus, instead of taking a moment to be just be still and be in the moment with my Creator. Then there are the times when I want to play solitaire on my phone or be on IMDB (Internet Movie Database), or watch Braxton Family Values or something. And not saying that doing any of these activities makes me or anyone else a bad person; but sometimes I feel like I put God on the backburner, and make certain other activities my priority instead.
With so many things going on in our lives, it can be easy to put a thousand other things ahead of God. How many times do we wake up in the morning and immediately zero in on what we have to get done for the day? Before you know it, hours have gone by and we still haven’t even acknowledged the fact that we’re moving around and breathing. We may not be moving around and breathing in a place we want to be in–but we’re still up and moving, courtesy of the Life Force that holds everything together.
I ask myself why is it so hard sometimes to give even five minutes to truly connect with the Being that feeds my being? I think it boils down to the seeming abstractness of the situation. We can see and hear family and friends. We can see and hear the TV or actively engage on the phone or online; but with God things seem more passive because we can’t see or hear Him with our physical senses. So the conversation feels one sided. But I think if we really try, we can have active engagement with God. The engagement is just more subtle and it requires us to be extra still and listen.
I’m not here to say I’ll never be a spiritual *sshole again. I’ve gone through spells of it off and on all through my adult life. But I think it’s important that I do my best to lessen those times and to increase the quality time I spend the One who created me. I can only be better for it. If you have a racing mind and feel like you just can’t stand the thought of sitting still for even five minutes, start with 30 seconds a week, and then add another 30 seconds each following week. You can also take mini pauses in the middle of the day to just silently say, thank you. Just like a lamp, you can only have light, if you plug in, (corny, but true). A lamp is nothing but decoration without electricity, (its power source). But once it’s plugged in, it’s filled with light and can illuminate a whole room. I think we’re like that too. The more we connect with our source, the brighter we shine.
So as I finish this entry, I choose to make to time to lessen my *sshole moments and step more into moments of love, peace, and grace. I hope you will too.
Now go out and make today your best day yet!
Girl October
